dear people who want to be someone else sometimes

boy do i understand that.  last time i griped about people being jealous and hurtful to my child.  today i confront the inner green demons of my own.  even at the ripe, young age that i am (hehehe) i still have moments when i want to be someone else or i'm jealous of others....boy do i ever understand.  sometimes it's as silly as wanting to be someone like pauley perrette (abby on ncis) or christina aguilera (that voice!) but mostly it's the common folk, my own people, my friends.  like several of the mothers who have husbands who come home to them, help support them, snuggle and rub their feet (is that wishing too much?)...but you get the idea.  especially those husbands who have great enough jobs that it allows the wives to not work outside the home for a living - yes, i said it, there are times when i would like to be a pampered, stay at home wife/mom....getting the nails done, hair done, massages, volunteering...but i digress. 
where was i?  ah, yes, jealousy and wanting to be someone else.  when i day dream of being someone else, i rarely stop to think about what it would REALLY be like to be in someone else's shoes.  makes me wonder if behind that bright smile is she really thinking about the fight she had with her husband earlier and how she's going to make ends meet if they really split up or worrying about her mom now that she's started her 2nd regimen of chemo.  do we ever really stop to think about what is really happening in the lives of those we wish we could be?  i don't..i just see what i believe to be that perfect life and wish it was mine.
that leads me to the other side...needing to learn to be content...nay even happy with me...just the way God made me.  well, at least the way He wants me..lol.  i am an amazing child of God and i need to remember that.  he created me beautiful, smiley, dark, twisty and everything in between.  sometimes it's a chore to remember to be happy in my own skin...not wanting to crawl into another's.  and maybe when i have these moments, instead of wallowing in my desire to be someone else i should use it as an opportunity to praise God for the me that i am.  it'll be a struggle but with His help then i believe i can get there. 
but when the jealousy starts, instead of allowing it to run over me, drowning in it, i need to reach out to the lifesaver that is Christ and remember that i am a pretty freaking amazing person!  people like me, even love me, and i am incomparable to anyone else! and what's even worse, i bet most of the same people that i am jealous of and wanting to be...sometimes want to be me!  isn't that just a hoot - i'm driving myself crazy and they're secretly feeling the same way...life is so twisted this way.
anyway, suppose that's enough ranting for now.  hope i didn't bore you too much and maybe it'll help someone.

later days